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Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
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Profile  Kenny Poh 28th July 1991 Email:Leo2819@hotmail.com  Simply Love Her Much! Tagboard Links Sherene♥ ROSABELLA Allison Carrie Pat Ris Wanxiu Listen Archives
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Thursday, January 28, 2010
SIGH... I really don't know what happen to our relationship. i really don't know... i really feel like letting it go. maybe will be better for the both of us. but i can't do it.. i really don't know what had change you to become like this. i feel like crying now really feels like. can i get you back like before? can i.. our text nowadays are getting shorter, our calls also and our time for each other. isit drifting away? i really very lost very very.. sigh. nobody will knows how i feel.. nobody. even if it's you, do you? when i needed you the most you're always busy. when will you be free? when! sometime i wanna tell you more and talk things out with you, but i'm just so scare to say it out to you. i scare you will be angry with me and say i don't trust you all this and den we will quarrel again, that's is why i don't wanna tell you.. sigh, maybe both our sweet time has ended from the day we patch back. only quarrels will come more often den sweet time. i just wish that you will really understand me one day.. maybe till that day comes, you will realise and love me back.. what i had did for you is because i love you. and it's not that i dun have trust in you. and sometimes, you think that you're right on your judge. but did you give me the chance to explain to you? or tell you what i have to say. you will just say stop or enough of all this nonsense. everytime we quarrel, i take 10steps back. but did you even try to take a step back for me? isit really fair for me? do you think for me about it? do you? i will stop what i have to say. just think about it what i have wrote Monday, January 25, 2010
think back to past, i really wish! Monday again! Monday blue, as what they said every time.. nothing much to update for today. yesterday was tiring, waited for baby to bathe out but i fall asleep. I'm sorry baby! things are sightly getting better as i said in the previous post. read back what you wrote on your blog from Nov 08.. i really miss those day back when we were together.. we went lots of place together and just the both of us where by no one will interfere. i know that now, past is past and won't be back again. but will you treat me back like it was meant to be before? you said it once that, baby, would you bring me to somewhere.. somewhere where belongs to the two of us? right now i will answer you, yes i always will. just that now, I'm waiting for you to hold my hands and i will bring you far away where it is only meant for the both of us! you're running at the front now, and I'm behind you trying to catch up with you, will you stop there and wait for me? now, it's my turn to say all this i guess. been 2years that we know each other. but one thing for sure, i won't be giving up this relationship so easily.. no matter how deep i fall, how much I'm getting, how hard it is gonna be i will still pick myself up and chase after you. just bring me far away with you will you? valentine day will be arriving in 2weeks time. will you spend this very day with me? sometimes, I'm just pretending to be Strong, but deep down, I'm just as weak as a new born baby. baby, i really wish you would be back like last time. as you once said before when we're turning in, you want me to be back like last time, and i answer you yes. but i know it's impossible.. regrets will only recall back for what i had did to you. how i wish and i really wish... *I will keep loving you non-stop till the day i'm gone from this world* this is my promise made to you! Sunday, January 24, 2010
A quick update for Friday, yesterday and today. took bus down to woodlands on Friday night and accompany baby. went to Alvin house to slack around and slept over at baby house. And yes, it's Saturday! FLEA MARKET is what baby is waiting for!! woke up early in the morning 8o'clock, prepare everything and took cab down to katong village which is beside katong mall. reach there around 11am and unpack everything and help out with baby for 2 days to sell those unwanted clothes and accessories. weather was rather humid there, luckily mummy shop was nearby there. we keep running to mummy shop and enjoy the aircon while Regina and Sherman had to tend the booth.. we close our booth at 7plus, put the things at mummy shop and went for our dinner at kfc.. right after dinner, baby and i went back to my house.. thought of going club but half way when we reaching home, suddenly get very very tired, and kinda broke too. so we decided not to go in the end. lights off at about 1am.. very happy that baby is sleeping beside me! today, woke up around 10am, prepare everything and about 11.20am, aunt send us down to katong for the last day of our booth.. sales was alright for today, didn't earn much or earn less. but the neighbour of our booth today is very SELFISH! only think for herself but not others! not like yesterday one... close our booth slightly later today but still the same. had mac for dinner at mummy shop before we leave there. baby took cab back with Regina and Sherman to woodlands while i took bus back home, cause I'm kinda broke!! or else i would have to take cab too.. alright, i gonna turn in now. very very tired.. didn't get enough sleep for the past few days. and one more thing, i and baby is getting better already.. hope that we really won't quarrel again.. I Love You Baby! will call you soon! goodnight! Friday, January 22, 2010
just reach home from camp. sigh, it's the 3rd day today and we're still not okay yet. went to ecp to breeze yesterday afternoon till late night. feeling better there and it was really cooling. took a deep breathe, hoooo everything out. it's been a long time that i went there to chill out and think back what i had did for the past years. i was indeed playful, and didn't treasure what i had in the past. thought that things will be easy as it's, but it's never that easy that i have done.. after which, regret came out from the bottom of my heart. a lot of things ran through my mind there.. good times will always past so fast, and bad times will always past so slow. good things that i did will tend to forget, but the wrong things that i done will always remain there. we had sort things out yesterday, now i really understand what she needed most. i can see that this time round, i had really make her disappointed, and hurt her times and again and again.. she had never stop giving me chances but i didn't learn and cherish the chances that she had given.. this is the very last chances she's going to give me. i won't beg for another one again after this. cause if i do, I'm gonna hurt you again. i don't wish to see you getting hurt, i rather that it's was me getting it. I am very sorry baby! i wish and hope that things will be back to normal as soon as possible. Thursday, January 21, 2010
took leave today, didn't go camp. wasn't in a good mood and still feeling very down and lost. went drinking ytd night with my bestfriends, thanks guys for cheering me up! but things will still be the same. nothing has change. get damn drunk and woke up it's still the same thing. sigh, i'm really sorry for what i had did. i know that this time round, i had really hurt you alot from your post i read. i won't blame you if you're not gonna forgive me but at least we can still be friends. i guess? maybe what you told me before is right.. sigh, i'm still hanging on and waiting for hope that came across my mind. i'm now at the very deep of the ocean trying to flood on the water, and swim back as fast as i can but meanwhile i'll be drown anytime. keep flipping back to our photos that we took. really miss you and, wanna be beside you now but i know you need time to cool down. i really wanna hug you as tight as possible! you remember what you told me, that you won't run away or change another bf cause when your *yi gen han mao tong* i know what you want. and i'm the only one that can ren you for what you did. baby you know that i really love you and even thou if i'm checking on you, it's because i care and worried for you. right now, i'm in ns.. no money, no confident nothing.. if you were in my shoes, tell me how can you not scare.. how will you feel if you dun have all this and you've got a gf and is willing to wait for you to work and earn money, so that she can be at home and no need to work outside. i'm trying my very best this time round in our relationship. but i guess now, everything i had did is just that i'm a fling to you? it really hurts me alot. i had never really love a girl till like this before. you had taught me what is relationship but half way till you're gone. thought that this relationship i had with you were last till we old.. but i guess it's gonna stop here real soon.. *tears keep dripping down every second* nothing will change from now on. my love for you will remain the same. Wednesday, January 20, 2010
baby i'm sorry for disappointing you this time round. i know what i say now, you won't forgive me. but i just want you to know that i'm worried and care for you! and what most is I LOVE YOU! if you're not going to forgive me, i wont blame it on you. cause i had made you disappointed alot of times and beg for forgiveness but same things still repeat after that. i know that you had enough of me and maybe that's the way we're ending. till now, you said i don't trust you. i did trust you, just that my trust is in a wrong way i guess. sigh, still remember what you said to our promise? no matter what happens we will go through it together? you will hold my hands and walk till we old and you won't run away cause you're waiting for me to yang you. i remember everything that you said/text me. i'm very sorry and lost right now.. i know this time round what you said to me, you really mean it and serious of you. only can blame it on myself for my stupidness to check. memorise keep flashing back through my mind when i'm on my way back home. this is the first time i really love a girl(you) so much that i can give up my life but things won't change back now. valentine day is coming, and you also know that i brought ring for you cause you found it where i hide. it's suppose to be a surprise but now it's not anymore. hope that you will celebrate this very day with me. i know you will read this. this is only meant for you. PLEASE FORGIVE ME WILL YOU! I'M SORRY! Wednesday, January 6, 2010
 didn't update for the past few weeks! was busy having fun and forget everything about it! FIRSTLY! Merry Christmas AND Happy New Year to everyone and i know it's kinda late to say now, but i don't care! just wanna say! LOL! alright as for Christmas, i spend mine in club! with usual peeps and we party till lights on! had alot of fun! as for New Year, i spend mine at pat house. had steamboat together with usual people. and i remember that it's a start of a new year and i made baby so angry with me.. she didn't talk to me much the whole day and I'm try to please her with. till the next day everything return smoothly! lucky! this year, i read the lunar calendar about both of us, not so good for us both. i just hope that, it won't turn out that way that was return on it! baby has went to club with them and i cant get to go. sigh. hope that she kept her promise to me! I JUST SIMPLY LOVES HER MORE AND MORE EACH DAY! NO ONE CAN REPLACE YOU AWAY FROM ME SWEETIE! alright, gonna turn in now cause tomorrow gonna wake up early! goodnight! Labels: updated |
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But baby, where they knock you down and out
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